I started to write this as a comment for my friend Sarah but decided it was blogworthy.
A couple of week's ago Sarah announced her intent to do a temple remodel. I've been following her progress and her process with a little envy I suppose, and a little shame.
So many times I've tried to lose weight. So many times I've tried to grow closer to God. I'm not sure why I deviate from the right path.
So, my message to Sarah ...
I just wanted to say two words to you. GAME ON. I am so in this.
I just realized today that Will is 5 months away from being the age Trini was when I got pg with him. I desperately want at least one more child, two really, but I refuse to endanger myself or them by starting off a pregnancy so "weighty".
So, "Fill me up, bread of heaven." I'm determined to make this temple a pleasing place for God's spirit. And, like you, I'm working from the inside out.
Continuing on ...
I haven't been giving God nor His word the attention He is worthy of. From now on, when the kids start rest time, it's me and Him, one on one for at least 20 minutes at first. That's my babystep. I know it isn't enough but it is more than I'm doing now.
(Thank you, Flylady, for reminding me that doing something, anything, is better than doing nothing. And, especially with God, it's just stupid to strive for perfection, which is unattainable.)
Experience tells me that when I fill myself with the Word I tend not to fill myself, (okay, OVERFILL myself,) with food. In addition to jumping into the Word with both feet, I'm officially listening to my body. God gave me the benefit of signals with regard to food. I'm listening. I'm not going to drive anymore. Not even from the backseat. "Jesus, take the stinking wheel". (Okay, so she didn't sing stinking but she's a size 4 or something.) I've messed this temple up way bad.
The mind clutter and the body clutter are heading for the hills. I refuse to regret for the rest of my life that I didn't allow myself to receive the gifts I might have been given had I not kept pushing God's will aside.
So, sister Sarah, we're in this thing together, okay? Anyone else want to come along? Jump right in. The water is cold but it'll get warmer. I'll blog from time to time but I'm not making any promises. Babysteps. I don't want to get overwhelmed.
"Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's spirit lives in you?" - I Corinthians 3:16
- The remodeling has begun. I'm giving it to You, Father.